I have literally been living with that repeating in my mind for the last two weeks. Between doctor visits (all good and healthy), kid events and trip planning, I fully expect to meet myself coming in the door one of these days. I hope one of us will have the wherewithal to invite the other in for coffee. I sure could use a break. Oh, and I hope the cute, thin, togetherly-organized Kirdy that I'm sure is out there somewhere brings a couple cream filled longjohns, 'cause I could use a few of those, two.

I made the decision along with my doctor to wean off the Wellbutrin I had been taking for over a year. The decision was based on several factors, not the least of which was irritability. But I also really missed my blogging, and for some reason the Wellbutrin has snuffed much of my creativity. While it slows my mind down enough to think, it also slows it down enough where my internal editor's voice gets a bit too loud. Or something. Anyway, a week after I stopped completely, my fibromyalgia came back with a wicked vengeance. After two days of pain, both Mr. Chaos and I remembered me commenting a year ago that the Wellbutrin seemed to take much of my pain away. One call to my doctor confirmed I need to go back on it. If I'm not depressed now, living in a chronic pain state will put me there, and I don't want to be there.

So you my dear readers, must suffer. All two of you.

As for my last post, the doctor told me all is healthy and nothing to stress over. You know that study that made me go utterly apesh*t? Yeah, well, turns out that study found it increases your risk by 3-4%. And if I hadn't been such a raving basket case of hypochondria and just chilled the heck down and Googled the stupid study, I could have found that out, too. Dumbass, thy name is Kirdy.


We leave for a week long visit to Arizona in two days. Yep, all 5 of the Chaos family members will spend 26 glorious hours in the minivan. I ought to get a blog post or two out of that, right?

Bleary eyed from sleep, I sat down at the computer this morning to log into my Yahoo account. On the main page, I see the following headline....

"New research links folic acid to an increase in colon cancer"

I watched the accompanying video which talked about the rapid rise of colon cancers in young women who have taken prenatals for years while trying to get pregnant.

The $50 question of the day? What about women who took those prenatals PLUS 10 times the standard daily dose to make sure their other kids wouldn't get spina bifida? Anyone?

I had a dream two weeks ago that I was dying of cancer and leaving videos for my kids.

I just went back to Yahoo to see if I could find a way to link the video, and it's gone from the front page.

Someone is trying to send a message from somewhere. I'm making the appointment today.